Tuesday, September 10, 2013

The Voice of Truth

This morning I was pulled from slumber by yet another song. Softly it lulled me awake and soon I began to hear and understand and even sing along with the words themselves:  

"The voice of truth says, 'Do Not Be Afraid' and the voice of truth says, 'This is for my glory' . . . a little bit of instrumental and again the lyrics themselves repeated. 

I looked up the lyrics this morning and found it is a song by Casting Crowns titled "Voice of Truth" Here it is with the lyrics included. 

Pretty powerful song. I shivered with anticipation when I read them all. What am I being prepared for? If it is for His glory, how awesome it must be!! 

Often, throughout my life, I have dealt with the pain of my heart through poetry. This afternoon I found myself writing a poem. I find my poem a bittersweet one as I ask myself the ultimate question, "Was it simply my desire to be loved for who I was that blinded me to the truth I am seeing in reflection where Mike and I are concerned." I must admit the whole thing seems so surreal to me today. With that being said, here is my poem:

How sad it is for me
To look back and see
For much much too long
To me you did not belong
Why did I insist on believing you loved me when your love was so obviously shallow?

Daily I felt and saw the heat of your desire
How often you set my body on fire
But to say you loved me would make me a liar
And for that I simply have no desire
It hurts to finally see the truth.

A really loud bike raced by today
It did not effect me in the same way
Is it because I know you aren't around
That no butterflies danced at the sound?
I think you are losing your hold on me.  

My tears are even beginning to slow. I feel the emotion of my tormenting heartache building, but it is squelched before it overflows into hot streaming tears that cascade down my face as rapidly as a waterfall. 

The voice of truth is speaking to me. I have prayed for clearer vision and ears that are more tuned into the truth. Prayers are answered you know. I would be telling a lie were I to say a small part of me didn't want to make it all stop and rewind to a place and time where I felt that Mike was mine, but my heart already knows the truth. Pretending is no use. Why on earth would I desire the abuse? I think this is why so many women go back even though they know it in doing so they are willfully accepting their own demise.

I am blessed that Mike was removed to such a degree. I see the hold he had over me. To all women who are under bondage by men who claim to know Jesus but are determined to not follow his ways, I share with you a snippet out of 2nd Timothy. This is taken out of my MacArthur study bible, New American Standard, From the book of 2nd Timothy, Chapter 3, verses 1-7:

verse 1: But realize this, that in the last days difficult times will come.

verse 2: For men will be lovers of self, lovers of money, boastful, arrogant, revilers, disobedient to  parents, ungrateful, unholy,

verse 3: unloving, irreconcilable, malicious gossips, without self-control, brutal, haters of good,

verse 4: treacherous, reckless, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, 

verse 5: holding to a form of godliness, although they have denied its power; Avoid such men as these.

verse 6: For among them are those who enter into households and captivate weak women weighed down with sins, led on by various impulses,

verse 7: always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of truth.

I can not begin to admit how deeply these verses moved me. I heard them yesterday while tuned into Moody radio. You see, I was a woman weighed down with sins that were led on by my past impulses. It is true that Mike spoke to me about God and I felt he was an answer to a distant prayer. A very small part of me longs to not receive the truth for in receiving it is like putting a final period at the end of our story. However, the part of me that has her eyes wide open cannot deny it's truth. I begin to cry a little as I know my angels prepared me to be strong today as more and more truth is revealed to me. Do not be afraid they have sung. 

I know there is joy to be found in every situation in every day. I make it my goal to discover it like hidden treasure come what may. I found much encouragement in God's word as I continued to read 2nd Timothy, chapter 3. Jump ahead with me to verses 10-17:

verse 10: Now you followed my teaching, conduct, purpose, faith, patience, love, perseverance,

verse 11: persecutions, and sufferings, such as happened to me at Antioch, at Iconium and at Lystra; what persecutions I endured, and out of them all the Lord rescued me!

verse 12: Indeed, all who desire to live godly in Christ Jesus will be persecuted.

verse 13: But evil men and impostors will proceed from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived. 

verse 14: You, however, continue in the things you have learned and become convinced of, knowing from whom you have learned them,

verse 15: and that from childhood you have known the sacred writings which are able to give you the wisdom that leads to salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus.

verse 16: All scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness; 

verse 17: so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work. 

Chapter 4 is about going forth and preaching the word and I can just hear Paul in my head sharing all of this. For it is he that wrote 2nd Timothy. What an inspiration to others he must have been in person for he is an inspiration to me today in written form. Here is a man who started out persecuting all Christians and having them put to death, now being used to inspire countless brothers and sisters in Christ! Just think what God can do in your life should you put your faith in Him! 

That brings me to the song I heard on the radio this morning. As I listened to the words, I was like, "Yes!" 

From Big Daddy Weave, I share with you their song titled, "The Only Name". 

I will continue to keep my ears tuned into the voice of truth. While I understand I may walk many roads without a mate in doing so, I know I am truly never alone. You have always been my loving guide.

Father, I come before you today thanking you for the angels you send to minister to me. How loving of a Father you are to tend to this foolish broken-hearted dis-illusioned child of yours. How much time have I wasted chasing empty promises, precious time that you blessed me with. I often wonder, do you ever shake your head at what we have done with the gift of free will. How easily we are swayed by the father of lies. How evil he truly is. As if any of us need help with committing foolish deeds! I thank you for giving us your word and revealing truth in multiple ways. I am blessed to know you. I am blessed to hear your voice. I am blessed to be your child. How blessed I am Father. I give my life to you. Please help me share with others your glory. Forever your loving daughter, forever your humble servant. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for your grace and mercy. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Wendy, walks with God
Mom of Many

© Wendy Glidden 2013
Post a Comment