Thursday, October 11, 2018

My Biggest Fear

Recently I joined a book club. Really its a Bible Study Group, but the book we are studying right now isn't the Bible, its a book titled "the Circle Maker" and its all about circling your prayers. The book comes with a study guide and one of the assignments last week was to name our biggest dream and our biggest fear.

When it comes to my biggest dream, that has been consistent since childhood; I have always wanted to be a wealthy author who was known for bringing people into fellowship with God so that they could learn about how much He loved them.

According to this book, I need to circle around this dream of mine in prayer. I need to come boldly before Him in thanks and sing His praises and then I need to share with Him my hearts desire. I need to speak it out loud and clearly.

Therefore let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. ~ Hebrews 4:16 (NASB).

Again and again in Scripture, we are told not to fear but have confidence. If there is one thing I have learned while studying the Bible at Colorado Christian University is that God reminds us again and again during battle to have confidence, to be courageous, because He has us and He is faithful so there truly is no reason not to be confident when He says something is going to happen. 

The other thing that we were prompted to share was our biggest fear. I am humbled to say I don't have a biggest fear. That is not to say that I don't cry or have moments of doubt but more to say that very quickly my mindset is focused upon the fact that God is my stronghold. I KNOW He has me. There is nothing that can be done to me that could shake my faith or cause me to stop feeling loved or loving God at this point. Part of that is due to how far I walked down into the pit of hell before I received my wake up call. When I came back home, I came back demanding answers to countless questions. The education I received is noted throughout my book. It is why I know God has great plans for it. I know He is going to use it to free millions from their chains. It is going to be a gigantic call out. 

How can I be so confident about that when it hasn't touched the lives of millions yet? Timing; it's His. It has been from the beginning of time. I know this to be the case because He called me out, told me to share my life story. I am in awe what He wrote through me and how he used all the junk of my life to highlight incredible truths about Himself. Through my story you are guaranteed to see truths about your own life and in the end, if you get all the blessings that were written for you, you are certain to discover the key to living an abundant life. To think, all of this is possible for a mere $9.99 in print and $3.99 for the Kindle version.  

If in life, there really are things you fear, you simply must purchase my book. A life full of fear is a life not fully lived. I long for all to discover the path to true freedom. I stepped way out of my initial comfort zone to share all that God asked me to share and in the end, due to feedback from those who have read my story, I will be forever thankful that God called me forth. 

Father, I love my life. I am blessed to know you as I know you. Thank you for being faithful. It is discovering all you did in my own life as well as all you have done for countless others in Scripture that makes me feel so full of gratitude. When considering how short our mortal lives are, I find it amazing that you know my name, some random girl born in the midst of ages. How in awe of you I am. How blessed I am to have caught your attention. Please expand my territory, Please place my book in the hands of those who can bring it to the forefront of the industry. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Wendy, girl who walks with God, Mom of many

(c) Wendy Glidden 2018