Friday, August 7, 2015

That Was Then This is Now!

Today, my encouraging word was delivered from the book of Romans:

Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory He will reveal to us later. (Romans 8:18, NLT, courtesy of K-Love's encouraging word)

Wow. was all I could think for a moment. Today, my emotional heart is still fragile. How I long to be beyond this pain yet we all know that we don't just fly out of heartache. There is always a healing process. For now I am concentrating on being healthy so that I am healthy in all ways when my blessing from above arrives.



I am thankful that I know that those words of encouragement hold so much truth in them. How many moments in my past would I place under the listing of 'suffering'. Truthfully a lot of them. For instance, I have once again found myself in the shoes of single and pregnant. The first time this happened I was in my 20's and engaged only to find myself pregnant and alone. I ended up giving that baby up for adoption. All of this story is in my book: Here is a tiny excerpt from that chapter in 'You are Worthy Too: The Proof is in the Pudding'

Bruce was supposed to be arranging us housing close to his campus. He only called me a couple times to update me on the progress and to see how the baby and I were getting along before I received the next to last phone call I ever received from Bruce. 
Before I had a chance to even ask how he was doing, he said, "Wendy, I need to say this without interruption so just listen. I love you. I will always love you. This is too much. I'm not ready. My mom has moved and she changed her number, the college has moved me to a new dorm and they have been informed that you are not to have my new information. Don't bother my friends they know not to tell you anything. Good Luck." and he hung up on me.

I was frozen. I think I dropped the phone. Instantly my Aunt knew something was wrong. Through my tears, I shared what Bruce had said.

As that chapter of my life unfolds into the next, you begin to see what life is like when you don't lean on God. I am so thankful that this round I know who I am in Christ. While I am just as shattered to discover that once again I am not loved enough by the man I am with, I also understand that I am loved mightily by my Father in Heaven. I certainly don't understand what His complete plan is for my life, I am trusting in Him this round. 

I know He did not call me forth to share my life in a book just to have it sit in the publishing house. He is my provider. In my sharing my story, He has provided me a way to support my family. All I need is for the word to get out. I believe the time is right for that and it is my prayer that all who are reading my blog today are moved to learn more about what God called me forth to share. In my book you will discover much about me and my walk. I have not always been faithful to God, but He has always been faithful to me. Should you decide to purchase my story today for a mere $13.00, you will be blessing me and in return, I know there are countless blessings for you and others you may share my book with. 

I feel like I'm standing on the side of the road with a sign up saying 'Anything Helps' which is so ironic because I just wrote a blog around that thought recently, but sincerely, anything does help. I don't want a hand out. I want to make it on the talents that God blessed me with. Please consider helping me with that goal by purchasing my book, 'You Are Worthy Too: The Proof is in the Pudding'

In hopes of garnering your attention enough to do that, here is another excerpt from the following chapter:

As often happens when I deliver, things are not in order and it gets pretty crazy. In no time flat I gave birth. The doctor held up my baby and announced, "We have a girl." She weighed in at 9lbs 6oz.
I was taken clear on the other side of the hospital because I had requested not to be in the maternity ward. Lena came with me. When my nurse came to check on me, I asked if it was okay if I walked around.

She said, “If you feel up to it but be careful.”

I said I would. When she left, I looked at Lena and said, "I can't stand it. You want to go see her?"
She said, “Yes!”

We walked out of my room, smiled at the girls at the desk, and went around the corner right into the elevator. We went down and then across to the maternity ward through a tunnel.
The nurse in the nursery was just getting ready to feed her and she asked if I would like to give my baby her bottle. I could not stop myself. I had to hold her. I fed her, I admired her, and I sang to her. I inhaled her newborn sent.

Every fiber of my being wanted to keep her in my arms. Right then I looked up and my personal nurse was looking at me through the glass. She motioned for me to come out. She greeted me with a wheel chair and said, "Child when I said you could walk around, I did not mean for you to take a mile hike. You could bleed to death you know. We need to check your vitals.

** I promise my story has a message of hope for the hopeless, a laugh for those in need of laughter and most likely a tear or two for those in need of that. I have come to learn that crying has healing properties just like laughter does. Please help this mom of many by purchasing my book. In doing so, you will help  not only yourself, for we all have walked similar paths in life, but you just may bless those you purchase my book for as there are countless blessings in my book for those who read it.

Click Here to purchase "You Are Worthy Too: The Proof is in the Pudding" today. 

Father, today I thank you for the faith I have. It is hard to believe I am in somewhat the same shoes I wore 20 years ago. I am so grateful to understand how much you love me today for I did not know that back then. I thank you for opening the door for me when I knocked, what a journey it has been. While I have had moments of suffering, I have also had those moments where I witnessed what you did with that and I thank you for holding true to all your promises. I pray that the next phase in my life brings me to the things we talked about when I was so much younger. Have I really been having babies for 30 years now!?! You weren't kidding when you said I would be a mother to many. I thank you for my many blessings and ask that through my story countless others are blessed. May I be one of the vehicles you use to reach the lost. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Wendy, Mom of Many, walks with God.

© Wendy Glidden, 2015

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