Me and My Oh So Righteous Self . . . or not!
Be careful when you exclaim you will Never do something! More than I care to admit I have found myself doing
the exact thing I was so righteously convinced I would NEVER do!
Just off the top of head:
- Spite God
- Have an abortion
- Give a baby up for adoption
- Smoke
- Drink
- Do drugs
- Be one of those girls who was the show at bachelor parties
- Stay in an abusive relationship
I want you to realize I did all these things AFTER receiving the knowledge I received when I was young. Can you for one minute imagine being told you would be a mother to many when your own mother was the saddest darkest most negative person you knew on a daily basis? I wanted nothing to do with her life's path. I was told my first child would be a girl and I was informed that I would be young when I had her. I cried for I don't know how long. I wrote in my journal of what I was told and I began an outline of what kind of parent I would be. How I wish I had that journal to this day. I long to know what all I wrote down about that experience but my journal perished in a fire in the 15th year of my life. Regardless . . . sin number 1 was accomplished the year I met my first love. With his help I was going to outsmart God! I laugh about it now . . . but trust me when I say my sifting was just getting started!
I must publish this before I lose my nerve . . . I hope you figure out how to find my posts . . . I am not the most brilliant with all of this tech stuff . . . I see that there is a share button and I trust I will get that education as I continue . . . as I have come to believe ~ God will give me all I need as I need it! Again, may your day be blessed.
Wendy, mom of many
3 comments:
Wendy dear isn't it funny how when we are young we think we know everything,and think we can outsmart God. But thank goodness for mercy, thank goodness for grace, and forgiveness. I think what you are doing telling your story like this, takes guts, takes courage, and a lot of women will be able to come forward because of you. Keep doing God's work.
I am humbled by your words. Thank you so much for your encouragement. It means the world to me.
Yes what Debbie says is ever so true Wendy....... though i have come forward (before i have become aquainted with you), i discern, that I NICOLE RAMIREZ am going to come forth, not the one i have been hiding behind (IKES, don't even know what i am typing, but knowing it's true).. <3
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